Blackmonochrome

I was casually viewing videos on youtube when I came on the topic of the way back machine. I don't really know why but I decided to look up my 8 year old account I once deleted. I found 3 snapshots then after my username change 6 more, the more I looked the sadder I became. Why ? Why did I deactivate my account ? What happened, lots of regrets. "I wasn't good anyways"    yes that's true but its still a part of who I was or even better of who I am the scrappy ms paints the 4 words-long sentences, me learning English on this very own platform real life friends that came by and passed by, I want this back- yes I said that 2 times before on